It's been a while since I posted. Nothing has happened. A lot has happened.
My amazing kitty died. She'd been my cat for 16 years. I miss her a lot. I keep forgetting that she's gone and wondering where she is. Our house is emptier without her. My heart is emptier without her, too.
And we're prepping for the transfer. One week from tomorrow, if all continues to go well.
The doctor recommends implanting only one of our two good ones. Our chances go up if we do both at once but the risks of carrying a multiple pregnancy are too great. My doctor doesn't think it's a good idea.
They've asked us to choose between the embryos. There's one girl and one boy. Which one do we want. A little girl, like the little girl I miss so much? Or a boy, a bit of separation? Is there a right choice? Is there a wrong one? If there's only a 40% chance of success, can I handle it better with the boy than the girl? Why do we even have to make these choices.
What will I do if this doesn't work? What will I do if it does? Either way is hard to imagine at this point.