A low key weekend. I have been a bit of a hermit since we got back from vacation. I've been confused by social gatherings lately, more than ever with the approach of the holidays. It's hard not to think of where we were last year. It's hard not to think about what we should have this year. It's hard to accept that our baby is gone and never coming back. But I guess it's progress that I can think that and even write it without crying. Is that what a therapist would call progress? Let's say yes!
So I spent this weekend doing some things I'd been planning to do but hadn't for weeks.
I learned to crochet. I am slow and perhaps terrible at it, but I've already added several crocheted items to my ravelry wish list (http://www.ravelry.com/projects/kellyjallen). I am becoming a bit obsessed with craftyness, which is tough for someone who is not innately crafty, whose work often ends up looking like someone's six year old did it. But I will not give up!
I made a small attempt at organization, which involved getting rid of Time Magazines from 2011.
"But we haven't read them yet," my husband protested.
"We have 300 other magazines that you also haven't read. Read those instead, before they get sent to recycling, too," is the only proper reply. So off to the recycling bin went the news from 2011.
And I made Compost Cookies. The name put me off, because I am grossed out by compost. I love the idea of it, but maggots are one of my greatest fears (After bats and butterflies. For real, I am terrified of butterflies), and I am convinced that if I compost, I will end up with a bin full of maggots. But while I have compost, I love cookies.
These however were not my best attempt. I think I forgot to add the leven, or at least add the proper amount of it, because they were flat, flat, flat. And thus cooked faster than the suggested time, and because I was off practicing my crochet stitches, I didn't realize they were getting too crispy:
I was too embarrassed to bring any in to share to work. Which actually worked out in my favor - more cookies for me!!